| 005: Tuesday, December 13, 2011: 11AM EST |
[Tuesday
December 13th, 2011 at 1:15pm] |
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I'm an idiot.
I know she's going to leave. I know it. I'm just… I'm like a big dumb dog. When she's here, I can't get enough of her. I'm almost desperate for her attention. I want to include her in everything… all the things that she misses when she's away. I do this even though I know it's going to make it more difficult once she's gone. I just… I let her pull me into the vortex that as her, and my life… the life I lead when she's not here, is put on hold.
I don't know. I'm just… an idiot. There's no other way to describe it.
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Happy Holidays, everyone!
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| 004: Friday, October 14, 2011: 12PM EST |
[Friday
October 14th, 2011 at 10:06pm] |
If you haven't heard, the lovely Andi Dixon has returned to Atlanta, Georgia. I'm thinking that she must have missed me or something because she's been keeping me pretty busy the last couple of days. Of course, it's also possible that she's merely trying to fatten me up. She probably doesn't want to be the only one that has gained a hundred pounds from eating Japanese food every single day.
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Aside from that, there's not much going on in my life. You know... except for the fact that my very, very beautiful wife is pregnant with my second child. I know that most of you have already heard, but I rarely have the time to sit down and write in a journal. Evan keeps me far too busy for such nonsense. Not to mention, I was spending all of my free time trying to knock my wife up. It's it strange how it happens when you least expect it, but it takes an eternity to accomplish it when it's what you want?
It goes without saying, but I'm ecstatic. For the moment, life is pretty freaking good.
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| 003: Thursday, May 26, 2011: 3PM EST |
[Thursday
May 26th, 2011 at 4:08pm] |
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This is going to sound completely ridiculous, but I am jealous over how clingy Evan is being with Gemma. I have sacrificed everything for him, but I'm forgotten the second he has a choice on who tucks him in at night.
I know it's childish to feel jealousy over my wife, but I can't help it. He's my world. I've had him to myself so often since he was born, that I don't exactly enjoy sharing him.
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I think I'm going to go to the gym.
Gemma, if you let me know what you want for dinner, I'll pick it up on my way home.
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| 002: Tuesday, April 26, 2011: 7AM EST |
[Tuesday
April 26th, 2011 at 7:02pm] |
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We are trying to have another child. I must be glutton for punishment. At the same time, though, I love having her home. Too bad it won't last.
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| 001: Thursday, January 27, 2011: 12PM EST |
[Thursday
January 27th, 2011 at 4:02pm] |
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It makes no sense, but I feel like a selfish asshole. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but..
I resent my family. I made the choice to stay at home with Evan, but I resent them for it. I hate that I gave up on my dreams. I hate that I'm the male equivalent of a fucking housewife. I could've been in the NFL. I could've... anything. I didn't, though. I put my family first. Too bad she didn't do the same.
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I'm going for a jog. I need to blow off some steam.
Gemma, once I get back, do you want to go out for a late lunch?
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